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Sadly, my dear friends, this post is not going to be as exciting as it sounds.

Don’t get me wrong, I love me some boys! Who doesn’t love a little attention from the opposite sex?

But truly, I’m tired. Tired of not feeling anything when I see someone standing in front of me who cares so much for me.

I want to be single.

Why do I always find myself face to face with amazing guys? And the most recent? Just incredible. He has lived a life most of us could never even imagine. And beautiful? Did I mention that he was beautiful? Jawbone, lips, cheeks, eyes, body, style, everything.

Yet I feel nothing. I don’t want this right now. I just don’t. And I’m sorry…

I guess I’ve got a rough phone call to make tomorrow.


About esmemerrie

I am a 23 year old, newly graduated with a BscN. I am passionate about change. In myself or in others, I believe that there is always room for improvement and I never want to become complacent. Even still, there is nothing more valuable then celebrating, finding delight in even the simplest moments, the smallest accomplishments. I never have enough time for my hobbies, whether it's sports/working out, reading, cooking, volunteering, thrifting, playing piano, singing or hanging out with my family and friends I sometimes find it hard to fit it all in. But really, who doesn't? At the end of the day, I want to be the type of woman, Christian, friend, nurse, athlete, cook... the type of person who never settles and always inspires those around her. I want to be real, honest and faithful. Be the person that leaves them wishing.

4 responses »

  1. so sorry you’re going through this. It’s always the hardest when you’re the one making the decision but also it reinforces your commitment and love for yourself – which is what allows you to be a good person and a good partner. Hope all goes as well as it can and thanks for being a good example of how to love yourself unconditionally. It may not seem like it today, to you, but this is the kind of self understanding that people need. hugs…

  2. I totally understand that feeling. I went on a crazy dating frenzy this past summer after being single for the first time in forever, and it was just plain exhausting. I wasn’t very interested even though there were some great guys, so I’ve kept myself single for a few months now, and it’s great.


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